artistry or just insanity?

the girls are alright!


imissed myladies soo much. i went out with my womens to night... the ladies of ae peni... and we had such a good time.. it was soomuch fun dancing the night with them .. flirting with unknown boys... making out with one song lovers... chilling... doing beer bong for the first time... but the best part.. was comming back to the room and singing at the top of our lungs to rent and other songs.. such as ella ... atlast... i will survive....im so happy i have these women.


BUT! back to the making out... so .. ive descided... as a woman ... the best male lovers are either european(like in italy italian) or brazilian.. or like really hispanic.. like from that contry.....
why u say... well.. when they kiss u .. its like they are trying to swallo ur soul... its amazing.. and kiss u sweetly also.. and breath in ur ear... and give u shivers... adn hold u ever soo tight .. and will put u wehre they want u .. but expect u to fight back... which i do.. and bite back for that matter...oh dear... it just feels soo good.. and all we do is kiss... ..i forgot how much i love kissing....the purity of it.....

i love hearing the nirvana creep throu my windo... in to my bossum


im soo happy... i didnt even get that drunk ... thanku god for giving me a nother chance... i hope i do u want u want me to do....thanks

like no way!

Oh heavenly father, what can I do ?
What she's done to me is making me crazy
Oh heavenly father, I know I have sinned but look where I've been
It's making me lazy


yea its true!

i m in love with lou

reed that is

You can enjoy good times with "good people."... Go with the flow. Be creative and sexy. Enjoy top notch professional entertainment.... Communication flows well. Organization and negotiation brings favorable agreements.... You can reach exclusive agreements.... Your efforts can bring you recognition.

You can be a dash extravagant.... Work to become simultaneously open-minded and focused.... Improved self-expression is dramatic and subtle. Unique new opportunities bring pleasant surprises. Your best ideas are ready for television.... You are challenged to be charismatic. Express your fantasies. Steer clear of hypersensitive folks.

On Wednesday, Jupiter joins Mercury and Venus in your 'fun' zone. On exactly the other side of the sky, Mars will be moving very close to Earth. Added to that, there's a New Moon in that fun zone.

The latter suggests new developments in your pleasure department (needn't be romance - could be a new hobby).

Mars could act as a fuse here and light quite a fire! In short, your enthusiasm trip wire is about to be activated. Certainly you could fall head over heels in love. But it's perhaps more likely that you'll discover an aspect of you that's been hidden for some years.

It could be that you revisit a childhood haunt or finally make good a dream you had as a child. It seems you're ready to tap into a new stream of energy - and one that brings delight. Those who think they know you really well are sure to be surprised by this latest development.

The Arts (music in particular), look set to play a large role over the weekend. With your tastes changing you might want new sounds around you too. Your heart strings may be pulled on Sunday too - someone needs your understanding.


Sometimes it pays to hold out for what you need and desire the most, Taurus. But it is important to first know, with complete honesty, what those needs and desires are…and why you have them. Spend some time early this week unwrapping your longings, your fantasies and your hopes for love. Know what powers them, know why they exist and then be ready to use them as a guiding light. There is a point late in tThe planets align to help you express love now, Taurus.

Jupiter, the symbol of opportunity, enters your house of romance this week. Cleaning up your appearance and refining your manners, it appears, are essential elements to making the magic happen.


To be Taurus is to be searching for the love that will complete them. They enjoy familiar and comfortable surroundings home cooking quiet evenings and candlelight.

Your Natural Partners are Cancer and Pisces.

Different strokes for different folks. Today, more people around you will differ in their beliefs from yours. Rather than clash with all of them, listen respectfully to their opinions. Then only if absolutely necessary, try explaining your position. Great day to expose yourself to other points of view.












its all bullshit anyway
his week when magic can exist in the most delicious and powerful way. If you know "you"..and what you crave…you'll know exactly where to look for it…and what to do with it.

oh just a perfect day u just keep me hanging on



ur gonna read just wat i saw


so i didnt exactly hook up with the violinisst
but i did with the guy who books there shows and he wants me to write him a letter and he ll help me with stuff

which is good


i have alot of people interseted in my music and michell loves to play the drums... hey we are better than the white strips... my words are a little abstrack....and out there...



iwa nt u i want u so bad... i m sooo in and out and transpotting is on the tv and in and out... ... and in and out...


maybe its just like getting off of heroin but maybe im just intoxicated.. but i need to talk

thank god im not a clone

You ain't a pimp and you ain't a hustler

A pimp's got a Cadi and a lady got a Chrysler

Black's got respect, and white's got his soul train

Mama's got cramps, and look at your hands ache
i heard the news to day oh boy
I got a suite and you got defeat
Ain't there a man you can say no more?

And, ain't there a woman I can sock on the jaw?

And, ain't there a child I can hold without judging?

Ain't there a pen that will write before they die?

Ain't you proud that you've still got faces?

Ain't there one damn song that can make me

break down and cry?





its soooooooo goood
i want a young american... young italian american.. that is....i mean go for the best .... i want those dark eyes of his... please dont be gay..... iwanna watch the vmas with him all the time and comment ... lovely comments... ah... im floating... like smoke from a clove ciggerettte



good news... my project is based on.... TRANSVESTITES



am i giddie or what...

david bowie sang me all the way home.. so.. u kno.. i had to give the love!

oh i still want that man... ish....
yes im relating the house to my sweet transsexual

maybe u never love me
maybe i am insane
maybe i shouldnt have met u
but maybe happened just the same


so maybe i am nuts... or is it just everythign else i donno.. i mean things make sense in my head and ive always tried to be the understanding chick... ps. dont read this cus im useing this as a alievieater... thus.. i m too lazy to physically write alol this down and funny but i type faster...ahh where were we......yes.. insanity....

so i kid u not when i say i hear voices... its a shame.. i told my mom and shes scared but... i told her thats it ok.. cus. i really dont wanna be a druged out lifeless excuss for human creativity....they areent bad voices.. i mean i hear the typical .. my nonno.. my papa(grandfathers) and others who are dear to me.. i used to hear tom's voice but...i only hear it some times now... but the other night i kid u not... john lennon was talking to me again..

ok i kno im nuts.. weve realized this... now were do we go?
im going thru my own deconstructionism here!


saints talk to me too all the time... they did warn me about some things.. saying how i should leave certain relations and i didnt listen and look wehre that got me....

i dont care about having sex or kissing boys or looking pretty or making arangements for a happily ever after

my desire is dead
i grilled it on the george forman grill

i ve learned to use what i have and what i kno
i kno im an italian decent girl... whose...(now ur gonna say- is this really nina talking?) accaully not that bad looking... imean i kno people say im beautiful.. ive been compared to a renasance painting a few times... people can tell what i am by my face... those who know what real italian is that is... and i (listen to this one) accaually have a pretty damn good singing voice.. i reach all sorts of hi and low octives if i really wanted to show u and my diction is pretty ok.. but my voice is unique.. and doesnt just sound like shit... i think there is some quality be hind it...

this is starting to sound like an advertisement....

and also.. i kno im a very sexual being.. god didnt give me tits and an ass for nuttin baby... and hey look what i found this summer... A WAIST LINE!

i kno this sounds like other items u have read in the past by previous suckling sisters but u kno what


WHO TOLD U TO READ IT?
cus damnit i didnt


and i dont think its nessisary to write sad stuff all the time... if u think sad ull be sad... even tho u cant be creative and happy but when ur in a rut of tear water ur in knee deep... so float tot he land of nod and smile for once be fore i slap u... are u happy that u can smile?

give peace and life a chance be fore u put is down

and what god given right my dear pharoh did u get that says i will put down girls and make them feel insane till they accaually do?


really id love to know...

give me some credit u piece of plastic shit




i think im done now


u read at ur own risk

the one to heed for a friend in need
but some how the equivalent is never recieved


sonovabitch


yea thats right
i said it in writing

arrr

i need scap metal

part of my idea for my project has gone to the trash... litterally

but.. i had no one to walk me to the cite of my culpret=ing

oh no

leave this little girl alone she dont want those sceams


sounds just like a chicken......


pense monsier oui est cette person?


fin

its a known fact

italian boys are beautiful... there dark eyes.... his cute smile.... his pasion....AHHHHHHHHHHH

he watches me in my sleep... him and tom yorke... hot.. i kno



im figuring out more stuff .. its fun..life is great in ur naturalle

ive miss the boat

so ill have to build my own

whats the big deal any way?

ilovebeeing free and single again.... theres just something about teasing every boy u kno.... i hate to say it but is soo empowering... ilove being a girl!... and even tho i still have a bad habit of oopening doors for men...i think is soo nice when they do it for me or any ladie .ok im off the save the world with my hockey stick


or j ust my big 12 inch...... record.......

the stars the air the sky could care less if ur happy or depresssed

point and comment then start to laugh

tee hee
chuckle be low the buckle

bus rides are always the best to be inspired

realization= where sexes are traveling too.... juxaposition?



little feminate boy wonders out in to world looks for strong figure to rest head in boosum...
find one stronger more of a mass mover and attatches.... the mass mover falls over niagra for him but things happen as all things do

so lfb finds funloving loud femisital ethnic child whose nuts she likes music and people who play instruments... funny cus flfec thought lfb was gay... no kiding so all inhabitions were thrown from a 15th story
but let us remeber she was nuts...and less hotter then a cashew so she got locked up

3rd times a charm... ? lets hope so...
inter planet love is hot... gettem while they're young.... its all an adiction
love and music......




but so is architecture.....


fin

im breathing in im breathing out like humans do..


hey



been tryin to tell u
be happy we are alive! ... isnt that soo coool? wake up and smelll the sundried potperie of life
its soo much better than toilet paper!

im in love with the molecules that i breath and im ready
u hear me
thro those apples u mean old treees


i move the stars for no one


cept for david bowies crotch...

here is my horor.... scope for today or so

tauras
I'm not necessarily suggesting you need a new soul mate. But if you do, this is the perfect astrological moment to go in search of one. Where should you look? I suggest you hang out in unfamiliar territory where you will be fresh and curious -- frontier zones where you're likely to uncover secrets about who you really are. For fastest results, visit the Costco Soulmate Trading Outlet, a clearinghouse for soul mates at the Burning Man festival in the Nevada desert from August 25-31. It offers "quality name-brand and private-label soul mates at substantially lower prices than can be found through conventional wholesale sources." P.S. If you're happy with your existing soul mate, infuse your bond with a concentrated dose of smart, loving creativity. It's a perfect moment to propel yourselves into the next phase of your evolution together.




i dont kno anyy more


im not looking for no sole mate.... this time hes gotta have to find me....


i wouldnt mind it tho... or not... or maybe i just dont like boys.. or i do .... or...i m insane... or thats just true... or im ok with it...or thats a shame....oh well.. ill make out with my susie :) she soo hot.. she is the best thing on my hips... yea.. my guitar... soo osexy

so in love with my songs...gees... who would ever thing.. i catch my self singing them in the shower then change to a full frontal version of my sherona.... image.... yea...


word of the day: ardvark
its just that cool:)

ive notice ive gotten racist in my old age
i do kno that its partialy from my highschool ladies.. but.. i mean really ... where does the eyliner go on little azin eyes? i lovu philliean... and i mean .. it just was a way of pickng at each others balls....my ego went kyacking and i started chanting like an american indian....


u kno what
may be im just nuts


or ive been listening to lou reed too much....that could be it too.....
but the most wacked out thing is captain beefcake... wow... woowowowowow
talk about sporatic actions ...damn

but i drove home listening to my puccini! im an opera slut! but how can u not love it as tosca sings just be for she jumps or madam butterfly sings un bel jour be for she dies.... um .. yea people die in operas a lot... um.. but .. that happens in shakespear too


ok
pakking
lets hope we have a good year... i need to get my head... or loose it.. :)

arg... i hope every thing is in its right place

GUESS WHAT
so we are cleaning house ... ish and i just found out that im a proud owener of
... dum dum dah!


pope john paul 2 paper dolls



i thought that would be an intersesting fact....iod...






I RECORDED>>> IT WAS AMAZING and ILOVE IT!


it sounds realyy hot

youre talking alot
but youre not saying anything
wheny i have nothing to say
my lips are sealed
say something once
why say it again


i dedicate this excert to all the male beings in my life

from the ones that bore me to the onese that whore me....



but in other news....
im recording on saturday.. how fun is that?
its gonna be like demmo extreeeme but hey... its gonna be me
i kno where im headed its great!


back on the male tail topic


in coversation with my lovely mommie...today... she said ull find ur type when its right....but i have no idea what my type is...its terrible... i really dont care any more cus thats not the most important thing in the world but...oh well... i have to no base all my relations on music... i need somthing more....am i that flat of a character that all my romantic decisions were based on one subject in my life? is there no more to me than italian music and architecture?............

thats how ive come to define my self.....and poetry... but every one does it now adaze
i dotn wanna define my self my scars and messed up g.i. track....the many times ive made out with the porcelin bowl by self in flect.......


ive been slowly telling my dear friends bout the insident.... they are ready to kill me for pulling such a stunt... and telling me how i should call them... and me telling them how my life was not my own at that point.... but now we are back to the GREAT BARBUTO.. or just the crazy friend who barks out of car windows... ahhh like the good old days...




the best thing in the world is to watch the laybrith with ur sisters for oldskool staring at david bowie package.. thinking how much u love transvestites.. ........and farting rocks...hehe...

immiture for ever!

i want u
i want u soo bad
its driving me mad
its driving me


blast from the past like a charlie brown
artery knockin guess whos backin town
sweet surender
hopefully be for september
but of whatever
ur wish is my comand
take me like me love me for an hour and im a pup called scooby doo
romance me ill listen through the eighth notes of ur vision
putty in the major E
rolll up and down the scales like a carpel tunnel nightmare
but it feels soo good
maybe ur just the catalyst
and im riding the electrons desire
but arts fire is magnetic
and im stuck on u
bare breasted with my wants hanging out

but ur leaving on a jet plane

so i must get an education
to full fill my vocation
and watch some roses bud and die
O to lie
next to you on some handsewn blanket of both our design
parafait is digestable
lets rock this vestibul
of my soul



i wonder if he digs opera?
im such a phyconolodonno
hey dreamers do have much more fun